the gift of being busy

once i get closer to my deadlines and realize that i'll be doing nothing, i get so depressed
I have been planning a project long time ago...more than a year...
but did not start yet...
i find myself an excuse for every month =(
though sometimes i cry that i want to see my project live and successful one day...
its not being silly,, but i have discovered that i'm so afraid to try a new challenge...
sometimes they're not considered challenges..they're so easy but i'm just so afraid to fail
i have lost the ability to fight since i graduated..
when you're a student you try so hard to achieve your goals..but after that i don't know what happens
or maybe its only me whose facing this!!

at least i was successful to achieve some of the personal ToDoList:
1. getting rid of my old PC

2. preparing a party theme for Fares:

Fares Chocolate Labels

Polaroid photo cardanother talent that i discovered in moi

my SpiderMan

Shaikha but not really shaikha =/

dead pinyata

3. watching the secret
4. mid of sha3baan
5. GITEX 2008
6. ???????

everytime i go to the AGMC alone, I pass by this handsome guy =(
they have released a brown/ yummy chocolate mini
I'm so grateful that I got my 5 series, my first dream
but the mini is a different story, i don't know its so sexy that everytime
i see it in the street i feel like hugging and kissing it
maybe one day if i have alot of money to spoil myself.. i'll buy a second car
a brown yummy mini

i don't care if everyone thought that i'm not suppose to take a pic with elmo
i did it =D
and felt so happy even if i'm not a big fan of him
he's just so cute

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