i still cry when i see you
i cry when i see your name
i miss you so much..
why did you say that each relationship has an expiry date..
why it didn't just stop when we were together
wasn't life perfect
why it has to reach the end
why there must be an end

you told me that i'll have someone who'll love me like you and even more
but where is this person?
i've been waiting so long
i wish i could just stop waiting
i wish i can stop thinking about it

i don't want to wait for anyone
i'm tired of waiting
so tired

i'm not special to anyone
that is all what i feel right now
yes i used to be special to certain people
but not anymore

some of them got married and busy with their kids
others got new friends and I'm just an old friend
i don't know... my birthday is next month..
and that doesn't make me feel better
it is sort of cool..
but i'm scarred to have a lonely birthday
yeah i have to be positive..
I'm trying to be positive as much as I could
but sometimes i get days like today..
days that are not sunny and colorful
such days i leave received sms un-answered


hopefully this feeling will go away
i'm trying to do something for fun
like pet society in facebook
i'm enjoying it..

i better go and play with my pet..
very strange huh.. a cyber game could change your feelings !!
peace