flashback

eventually my family decided to go to AlAin
I wasn't interested at the beginning
coz I don't want to remember some stuff, actually sad memories
but as always I find it a peaceful place
a pure identity that has not been interrupted by others
a truly UAE,,, if someone would love to know the UAE,, I assure that AlAin represents the UAE
simple life and simple people,,
simple buildings, simple houses
if I had enough money and the freedom to go anywhere,,
I'll buy a house in AlAin and will go every weekend alone
talking about doing whatever I want
my friend came back from Turkey again =(
alot of wishes that I add to my list
I wonder when they will come true
Turkey, Egypt, Greece, Morocco, Spain, Oman,,,etc.

and my love to Turkey is an old love story
not since the turkish series appeared,,
I always had this wish once I first visited Turkey,, my family hates it
they just hate the word turkey coz we didn't enjoy our visit there
we planned to stay for amonth and ended up in dubai after one week =/
but i still want to visit it
I don't care if the people are rude in Istanbul
I just want to go there again
alone or with someone who would love to make my wishes true
who would be patient when i stare at something
grabs me a rose from the street
and tell me how much I mean to them

aren't there going to be someone who would love to color my wishes
who would walk the long road just for me
I just want someone to ask me where do you want to go?
or what do you want?
or what is your favourite color?
yeah a silly question,, but i miss it
I miss those silly questions
coz for some it means they care

I have been asking others for their FAVs,,
but wasn't asked from alooong time about my fav stuff

I know there are some people who care
but will there be someone who cares the way I care
who would search for the stuff that draws a smile on my face
who would think of me when I'm asleep
who would wish me a good morning and a good day once I wake up

I have to believe there will be
I have to believe they're coming
coz once you don't believe,, you die

so I believe they're coming
its only few miles between us
I believe they'll love me the way I love them
they'll cherish everything in me the way I do in them
I believe its only few days and I'll be..... again
and forever

INSOMNIA

I'm having insomnia for more than two weeks now though everything is going fine el7imdellah and I'm not feeling sad or depressed, coz its one of the main reasons that cause insomnia =/ as they say !! I was seriously thinking to resign out of that company I even requested for the official resigning letter
I think I changed my mind today,,
I'm not gonna quit until I find another job
since its becoming so difficult for citizens to find a job in Dubai

I'll wait for a while,,

I'm stuck in almost everything
I decided to go back to personal graphic design
years back I vectored a lil girl and didn't finish it
and I always wished to do that artwork that i keep on visualizing
I reVectored it again and it looks awsome
I just need to put it in a full layout,, and I'm stuck for days now =(
days only to do the layout =(

maybe its my fault that i don't know what is the concept exactly !!!
I think I need a change in my life